Why must the bad always overshadow the good?
No one really understands. Everything I go thru’, everything I feel, no one knows how happy or upset I am.
I just hope you realize how much I do mean to your life. I still love you, and I’ll be here always, but I just want you to realize what you’re doing and that may be, you’ll miss me enough to find your way back into this relationship. I miss you.
I’ve always thought I could do everything. Not to sound cocky or anything, but I’ve felt like I had the ability and will power to achieve what ever I was going after, I think everyone has that chance. As long as you try your best at it, that’s all that matters right? But sometimes it just doesn’t work out like that, sometimes it does suck or hurt to not be able to accomplish what you’ve been trying your hardest at. What makes it even worse is when you find out that someone else can do what you can’t. Even though I don’t like to compare myself to anyone, it just doesn’t feel right when I can’t do something I’ve felt so confident in doing. It just hurt trying so hard but still coming up short.
The uncertain future scares me. Imagine yourself one year from now, is that where you want to be, is that where your life is supposed to be? Not knowing the future is bittersweet in a way, you get the full surprise of what may lie ahead of you yet you also get to see where life has brought you.
I’m honestly scared to where I end up, hell, I don’t even know where I’m going after high school. There are just too many decisions to make in so little time, it’s overwhelming to say the least. If only time could slow down a bit, and may be it’ll be possible for me to catch my breath and relax from all the stress.
Never felt like using tumblr anymore after it became a popularity and over-hyped scene for everyone. But now, I feel as if I can actually be expressive with what I’m thinking. No more hiding within my shell.